Spider Webs

“They hatch deadly snakes and weave spiders’ webs.  Whoever falls into their webs will die, and there’s danger even in getting near them.”  Isaiah 59:5 NLT

Have you ever noticed how many spider webs are hanging around?  Yesterday I received a text from my sweet friend, Kristie, who asked me to pay attention to the spider webs as I left my house.  The morning dew had caused every web to be visible.

At first glance, I saw only the webs in the bushes and the grass.  The closer I looked I saw spider webs in the tree branches.  I saw them in the power lines, too.  As I drove out of my subdivision and onto the main roads, I could see spider webs everywhere.  There were too many to count.

The webs were beautiful as they glistened in the morning sun.  Most of the time, spider webs are invisible; we don’t even know they are there.  So it is with the evil one.  He is everywhere, just like the spider webs.  We cannot always see him, but make no mistake; he is there.  God used Kristie and the morning dew to reveal this hidden danger.

The evil one uses our weaknesses as a spider web to trap us.  Our web could be food, or shopping; alcohol, or gambling; porn or gossip; anything that keeps us from doing our best or distracts us from what God wants us to do.

Evil entices us with the awe of beauty that is so attractive it’s hard to look away.  We become mesmerized as we look; and the closer we get the more danger we are in.  The spider web attracts its prey and before we know it, we are stuck in a sticky web that the evil one has spun.  The more we move, the more stuck we become. Trapped.

The spider (evil one) will then come and suck the life out of whatever is stuck in the web.  The evil one’s job is to steal, kill and destroy [John 10:10a], and he will do anything and use anyone to make sure his mission is successful.  Once a bug is trapped in a web, the only way out is if someone literally cuts the strands away from the bug.  Once we are trapped, the only way out is if God comes and cuts the strands away from our soul.

This morning I opened the front door to go get the mail, and a spider had spun a massive web directly in front of the door so big that I could not get around it.  I got the message loud and clear.  I ran and got my broom so I could knock the web down; spotted the spider trying to get away and I stomped on it.

Don’t give the evil one a foothold in your life.  Persevere.  Be on your guard.  Suit up in God’s armor [Ephesians 6:10-18] every single day.  Ask God for wisdom; ask Him to show you the spider webs in your life.  Ask Him for courage to overcome the weakness, and ask Him for a way out when tempted.  Ask Him for the strength to knock down the web and to stomp on the spider.

Peace be with you.

~Julia

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All Joy Beach

“Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds…” James 1:2 (ESV)

My friend Janis called me today, eager to share God’s glory as He worked in the life of a friend of hers, Nadine.  As she shared the most recent miracle that she had witnessed, I knew I had to share it with you.

Due to the recent downfall in our economy, Chris and Nadine’s thriving business on Hilton Head Island failed, and they had no choice but to close.  Eventually their home went into foreclosure.  Their home was scheduled to go into auction this past Monday.  Chris and Nadine were extremely sad, overwhelmed with embarrassment that their family had to endure during this terrible hardship.

As a new believer, Nadine wanted to be a godly example, so she chose to walk joyfully, trusting in the Lord, sharing her peace with everyone, no matter what the outcome.  Her husband was not a believer, and had a difficult time with the reality of losing their home.

Sunday evening Nadine turned to her church family for prayer.  Sharing their journey, she asked for specific prayer that the house would not be sold at auction the next day, but no matter what happened, she would have peace.  She asked for prayer for her husband, and her two children; and that God would provide a home for them quickly.  She announced she would be baptized the following Tuesday and invited everyone to come to celebrate her public profession of faith.

On Monday, at the auction, the house sold.  They had 10 days to vacate the property.  Once again, she turned to her church family for prayer.  She was very sad, but she was determined to be joyful even in the midst of this trial.

The day of her baptism arrived and they woke up to torrential rainstorms.  Nadine and her friends prayed for a window of opportunity so that she could get baptized.  She spent most of the day packing up their belongings.  With sorrowful tears flowing down her face as she packed, she heard a knock on the door.  The man who had purchased their home from auction the day before was so moved by her story and faith, he felt led to come by to offer them the chance to buy the house back.  In addition, he was willing to work with them on the terms of the loan.  If they couldn’t get a loan due to foreclosure, then he would give them more time, rather than 10 days the bank had given them to move out.  Sadness turned to joy as she realized God had sent this man to encourage them.  She shared the wonderful news with her husband.  The veil was lifted from his eyes and he could see God’s miraculous hand working in their lives.

Notice the circle of light surrounding this family.

On Tuesday, when Chris, Nadine and their two daughters arrived at Alljoy Beach, God parted the clouds as the entire family walked out into thewater; sunlight illuminating His glorious majesty; their lives forever changed.   After the baptism, the clouds came back together and it rained for the rest of the night.

Nadine shared the irony of being baptized at Alljoy Beach, remembering her choice to consider it all joy as she persevered during this trial in her life.  God showed up, even after they thought everything was finished.  It’s never the end of the story with God.

Peace be with you.

~Julia

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The Kingdom of Kevin

“He will wipe every tear from their eyes, and there will be no more death or sorrow or crying or pain.  All these things are gone forever.”  Revelation 21:4 NLT

I have blogged about Kevin before.  His perseverance while suffering has been an amazing testimony to everyone with whom he has come in contact.  His faith is uncompromising and strong.  His is a courageous man of God and a mighty warrior for the Kingdom. You can read Kevin’s story in my post titled “A Thorn in the Flesh.”

With no cure for Kevin’s illness, he has made the difficult choice to stop all treatment and has been put into Hospice care.  Although this makes our family very sad, we know that Kevin has fought the good fight and he is ready to go home to be with our Lord.

Sunday morning was a special morning, as Mike and I searched for courage to come to terms with Kevin’s choice.  During the worship service at Mountaintop Church, we felt God’s presence so strong that it took our breath away; tears streaming down our faces as we sang to honor God in the midst of our sadness.  When the pastor got up to speak, he made a Freudian slip.  He meant to say “The Kingdom of Heaven” but instead, he said, “The Kingdom of Kevin.”  Mike and I both looked at each other with tearstained eyes, and we smiled.  And so, in honor of our brother in Christ, and Mike’s earthly brother, I dedicate this poem to Kevin.

You will find him running marathons
On streets of pure gold;
Glistening in the heavenly sun.
You will find him center court,
Where basketball games are played on courts of Jasper,
Clear as crystal.
You will find him leading worship,
Where songs of praises are sung to God,
Sitting on His mighty throne.
You will find him in first chair
As angelic orchestras play.
You will find him in the garden, beside the tree of life
Sharing words of wisdom to all who have gone before him.
You will find him praying, running, singing, laughing, dancing.
In the Kingdom of Kevin, you will find him healed.

  Peace be with you.

~Julia

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Is the past really in the past?

“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose.”  Romans 8:28

We all have struggled with memories of a traumatic and painful past; those memories that come back like a thorn in our flesh.  For the most part, those painful or traumatic times have become a part of our lives, and we will always have to deal with them. They are a significant part of who we are. As we go through life, something will happen that will trigger our memories which will send us spiraling downward into that dark pit once again.  Perhaps we hear a song that reminds us of yesterday, or a word spoken by a friend.  Sometimes the anniversary of the event is enough to trigger a journey back to the pit and our emotions from that difficult time will come flooding back.

There’s a young man I know who, years ago, made a suicide attempt.  It was spring time and he become very depressed.  It was a traumatic experience.  He had swallowed a bottle of pills and was rushed to the hospital.  Too much time had lapsed to pump his stomach, so he had to drink this thick charcoal solution over and over again to absorb the drugs.   By God’s hand he survived, however every spring, the smell of flowers blooming takes him back to that tragic time when he tried to end his life, and he finds himself back in the dark pit only to relive that time of despairIt is a difficult time of year for him; yet as he is sent down that road of remembrance, each year gets easier.     

We try with all our might to avoid revisiting those hard painful times in our lives, but I believe it is all part of a healing process.  The bible tells us over and over to remember what God has done for us.  Each time we experience our past, the pain isn’t as intense as it was the time before.  We learn how to deal with it better and we remember that God was with us, and He got us through it.  We remember God’s miraculous healing that took place and it gets easier.

I recently experienced an event that sent me spiraling out of control.  Nothing made sense to me.  I could not think straight and I could not trust my own thoughts or feelings.  The tragic events of my past haunted me.  I was an emotional wreck. I was falling back into my pit once again. I was confused most of the time and I cried out to the Lord, “I thought I was over this!”  I begged Him to deliver me from the darkness and lead me back into the light.  He showed me that others struggled in the pit, too, and they served as a reminder to me that He always has a plan for healing. I finally understood, and everything became clear once again.

I believe that God has us revisit our past so that we will remember what He has done.  God will use our painful past to help others for His glory.  We can relate to others who are going through similar circumstances, and God will use our pain to offer hope and encouragement.  We can pray for others and let them know that they are not alone and that they will be okay.  This is a natural part of healing.  It means we are getting better.

As painful as our past can be, let God take you where you need to go.  Let God teach you what you need to learn.  Let God show you what you need to see.  Persevere over the darkness of your past.

God will show up – and He will show you the way out.

Peace be with you.

~Julia

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Persevere through Prayer

“Never stop praying.”  1 Thessalonians 5:17  (NLT)

Have you ever wondered whether or not your persistent prayers were aggravating to God?  That praying for someone or something over and over was pointless?  I was recently in a discussion with someone who believed we should pray only once for something and then move on to the next prayer.  So I checked it out.  That’s not what the bible tells us.  I’m certain that God wants us to persevere through prayer.  I believe God wants us to be persistent in our prayer life.  This is what I found.

“One day Jesus told his disciples a story to show that they should always pray and never give up. “There was a judge in a certain city,” he said, “who neither feared God nor cared about people.  A widow of that city came to him repeatedly, saying, ‘Give me justice in this dispute with my enemy.’  The judge ignored her for a while, but finally he said to himself, ‘I don’t fear God or care about people, but this woman is driving me crazy. I’m going to see that she gets justice, because she is wearing me out with her constant requests!’”
Then the Lord said, “Learn a lesson from this unjust judge.  Even he rendered a just decision in the end. So don’t you think God will surely give justice to his chosen people who cry out to him day and night? Will he keep putting them off?  I tell you, he will grant justice to them quickly! But when the Son of Man returns, how many will he find on the earth who have faith?”   (Luke 18:1-8  NLT)

Jesus reminds us through this parable that we should always pray and never give up.  The judge granted the woman’s request because of her perseverance, not because of her eloquence.  I am sure this woman did not come to the judge’s door, and quietly knock, saying “Please, if you don’t mind”.   No, she was crying, banging on the door as hard as she could, over and over, day after day after day, begging and pleading, “PLEASE!  GIVE ME JUSTICE IN THIS DISPUTE WITH MY ENEMY!”

I know of a modern day persistent widow named Kate.  Kate prayed for her son’s salvation every single day.  After many months of praying daily, she felt led to fast.  Kate was a connoisseur of cake.  It didn’t matter what type of cake; she loved it all.  Kate believed that if she were to fast the one food she loved the most, surely God would honor her request.  So every day, day in and day out, she fasted cake and prayed for her son’s salvation.  Some days were harder than others as she cried out to the Lord, banging on Heaven’s door, pleading with God to intervene in her son’s life.  Days turned into weeks; weeks into months; and months turned into years.  For twenty years, as Kate prayed for her son’s salvation, not one piece of cake touched her lips.

Then one day, her son came to her, and shared that he had made a decision to follow the Lord.  Kate was ecstatic, and describes her son finding Christ similar to the parable of the Prodigal Son.  She welcomed her son with open arms and threw a party for him.  And they celebrated with the biggest, sweetest, most decadent cake she could find!

Persevere in your prayer life.  Bang on Heaven’s door!  Beg, plead and cry out to God for justice.  It might take minutes, days, weeks, months, or 20 years, but God loves us and He loves the people we pray for.  He hears our prayers.  Don’t for one minute believe that our prayers are annoying or pointless.  Believe that our prayers are music to God’s ears.

Never stop praying.

Peace be with you.

Julia

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Lost Vision for a Moment

“Where there is no vision, the people perish.”  Proverbs 29:18 KJV

I haven’t posted in a while.  Nothing I’ve written lately has made any sense.  Once in a while, I’ll write something to submit to a publisher or a contest just to see if I can get a reaction.  Recently I wrote something that I thought was quite profound and I sent it on to one of these publishers. Usually I never hear anything from them, but this time I got a letter back.  As I opened the letter, I hoped to finally hear someone was interested in my writing.  But no such luck.  It was a rejection letter.   I’d rather not receive any response at all than to be totally and completely, without any doubt, rejected.  So here I am.  Stuck.  Unable to write.

Rather than move on to the next thing like we’re supposed to do, I took it personally and stopped writing all together.  I haven’t had a reasonable conversation with God in about a month.  I’ve allowed the evil one to convince me that I am not a writer and that God didn’t have anything to say to me.

I listened to all the lies; the lie that nobody is interested in having a conversation with me, that I was a poser, and that I needed approval from some faceless publisher.  We can be our own worst critics, and Satan knows this about us.  He knows our insecurities.  His job is to steal, kill and destroy.  As I climbed into the pit, He was right there with me, whispering the lies into my ear.  And this time, I listened.

I lost my vision.  I began to perish.

After two months of perishing, God used a woman named Carol to get my attention.  Carol is in the midst of crisis, and as I sat next to her, trying to comfort her, she comforted me instead.  She told me she had come across my blog.  She said that the entries were good and recommended to the rest of the group that they take a look.  She thanked me for sharing my gift.  But it wasn’t just Carol’s words that warmed my heart; it was the bright, loving smile that lit up her whole face!

God often shows up with His awesome, amazing power, and does very ordinary things.  He uses that power to encourage us as we cross paths with one another; even when we are not paying attention.  You may not even know that you have impacted someone’s life by your words of encouragement, or even just a smile.

Carol had no idea I was struggling, and yet, she showed up as God’s angel, full of love and hope.  She spoke life giving words directly to my heart in order to for me to climb out of the pit and persevere through the pain of rejection.

When we focus on ourselves, and on the world, instead of helping people, we lose vision.  We perish.

When we focus on God’s plan, His vision, and His direction, we gain back our sight.

Lord, help us never lose sight of Your plan for our lives.  Help us continue to persevere through all life’s circumstances, including rejection.  Please reveal Yourself through the people in our lives, and continue to show up with your awesome power to turn ordinary things into Your extra-ordinary plan.   In Jesus name  ~Amen.

Peace be with you.  It’s good to be back!

~Julia


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Do I Really Have A Choice?

“A wise person chooses the right road; a fool takes the wrong one”.  Ecclesiastes 10: 2 (NLT)

Life is full of choices.  Until recently I don’t think I truly understood what it meant to have real choices.  The word choice was never a part of my vocabulary.  Ironically, my whole life has been filled with choices I never knew I had or I didn’t take seriously.  As I focused on the word choice I was surprised at how little attention I gave to making decisions in my own life.  Prior to that I was blinded as to what was available to me.  As I continued ponder this thought, the choices I made throughout my life became clear:  some good; some not so good.  Good or bad, they were my choices.  They did belong to me.  When I realized these decisions were mine, I began to see that it might be a good idea to choose more wisely and deliberately.

Realizing I have a choice in my circumstances is liberating.  I have been, at times, debilitated by sadness; overwhelmed with darkness, or overtaken by strongholds I cannot seem to control.  During those times, I sat in my dark pit, throwing myself a pity party, complete with balloons and cake, and convinced myself that I had no choice.

I struggled in solitude so that I could feel sorry for myself.  I didn’t want anyone to cheer me up.  I wanted to be in the pit.  I deserved to be in the pit.  Let’s face it; we have all experienced this self destructive attitude at some point in our lives; thinking our circumstances were out of our control (sometimes they are), and we had no choice but to be miserable.

While sitting in our loneliness, we listen to the enemy’s lies as he whispers into our ear.  “The choice was never yours.”  “You deserve to be miserable.”  “God doesn’t care about you.”  And while we wallow in our pit of despair, we convince ourselves that God has left us.  We fall prey to satan’s trap, which is to stay in misery.  He wants us to believe that we do not have choices, and he certainly does not want us to know we can have power over our choices.

In Ephesians 1:17, Paul reminds us to ask God to give us “spiritual wisdom and insight so that you [we] may grow in your [our] knowledge of God.”  We must remember to pray for wisdom, and ask God to reveal to us our choices.  Then we must respond differently.  Nothing changes until we make the choice to change.

Look, we have all felt powerless at times. We all end up in the pit at one time or another.   We scramble our way out, only to be pushed back in.   It’s not always our choice to fall into the pit, but it is always our choice to stay.

Acknowledgement of the fact that we have choices is the first step.  How we respond to our choices makes all the difference in the world.  And then we choose to fight with everything inside of us to persevere until we have made it out.

Peace be with you.

~Julia

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Stagnant and Stale

There’s a local park where I like to walk.  It’s a beautiful park with a 5 mile gravel trail that winds in and out of wooded areas and wraps around a rather large pond.  Stunning terrain; wonderfully landscaped.  A picturesque man made work of art.  The pond, however, is stagnant.  Still water never moving with a layer of scummy residue on top.  Once in awhile I would see a ripple where a fish or turtle had popped up to catch a dragon fly.  The pond then returned to that still and stagnant complacent place.

As I walked around the pond-the words stagnant, stale, still, and complacent penetrated my heart.  Watching the scummy residue float on top of the still water, I thought of where I was in my own life.

I asked God, “Is this me Lord?

Have I become stagnant and stale?

Have I become complacent with a scummy residue on my surface for all to see?”

I believe God’s answer to me was simply, “Yes.”

I have been dealing with some negative feelings that have consumed me with anger and resentment, so much so that I had forgotten my mission in life to always be about my Father’s business.

Oh, there is a ripple here and a tiny ripple there, but the water of my soul never moves, never flows, leaving me complacent and stagnant with the scummy residue of anger and resentment burning in my heart.

I’ve been praying lately for the Lord to remove my negative thoughts and help me to see only positive ones.  I have been praying that God would use me to be a change agent in the lives of the people around me.  I have been praying for the courage to change in the areas of my life that I need to change.

My heart has been stagnant far too long. The time has come to open the floodgates and clean out that complacent pond of my heart, remove the scummy residue that is anger and resentment and allow God to deliver fresh flowing water of grace.

Revelation 22:1-2 (NLT) states “Then the angel showed me a river with the water of life, clear as crystal, flowing from the throne of God and of the Lamb.  It flowed down the center of the main street.  On each side of the river grew a tree of life, bearing twelve crops of fruit, with a fresh crop each month.  The leaves were used for medicine to heal the nations.” 

The water of life is a symbol of eternal life.  It will bring healing and strength wherever it flows.  The leaves will be used for medicine to heal the nations.  That gives me so much hope.  I need not worry about things of this life the way I have been.  I need not be angry or resentful of what the world around me has become.  God is faithful.  He showed me through this scripture that He will use water clear as crystal from the river that flows from His throne to rescue me from this complacent place.  He will water my tree of life in order for me to bear much fruit.  He will heal my heart and the world around me.

As we persevere toward the goal that God has laid before us, I pray for fresh-flowing, healing water from the throne of God to cleanse our impurities; to wash away any bitterness and anger and replace it with grace.  And I pray that our body of water will be an ever flowing river of strength and unity; healing to all.

Peace be with you.

~Julia

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Three Steps Toward Victory

“The people who walk in darkness will see a great light.  For those who live in a land of deep darkness, a light will shine.”  Isaiah 9:2

Satan is running rampant in my life and in the lives of all my friends.  Everyone I know is being attacked.  One friend in particular has been struggling with unrest and confusion.  Her past has come back to haunt her.  She has overcome so much adversity in her life. She claimed victory over satan about 2 months ago.  After being stuck in the pain of her tortuous past for years, she and I celebrated her ability to forgive.  She was ready to move on to a brighter future.

Healed. Forever changed!

And satan has been on her heels ever since.

She had been in a dark daze for weeks, unsure of how she got there.  She and I planned to attend a meeting one Sunday afternoon, but she couldn’t find the room. She had forgotten her phone so she was unable to call me.  Satan had her right where he wanted her:  Alone and vulnerable. She stopped short, allowing her emotions to take over.  She ran out of the building without ever finding me.

She was blinded by darkness, unable to see.  Had she taken three more steps down the hallway, she would have found me and a plethora of people who would have surrounded her, loved on her and prayed with her.

Three steps toward victory.

Satan is the father of lies, doubt and confusion.  When darkness settles on us, the light becomes dim. It’s bleak and frightening.  Satan will use whatever, and whoever he can in order to discourage us from healing or changing or growing closer to the Lord.   However, evil can only go as far as God’s chains allow him, and those three steps were out of satan’s reach.

God is the Father of clarity, and of peace; full of light. God wants us to take that next faithful step, even when it’s dark and scary.   Step by courageous step, we become victorious when we fix our eyes on Jesus in spite of the darkness.

The next time you find yourself surrounded by darkness, persevere.  Take that next step toward the light.   Then take another step.  Yes, it’s dark and scary.  Yes, your emotions will take over.  That’s okay. Cry, scream, and yell if you have to.  Do not allow evil to win that day or any other day.  Every step you take toward the light, you claim victory over evil.

Victory in the joyous light of the Lord!

Peace be with you.

~Julia

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A Thorn in the Flesh

“Three different times I begged the Lord to take it [the thorn in Paul’s flesh] away.  Each time he said, “My grace is all you need.  My power works best in weakness.”  So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me.  That’s why I take pleasure in my weaknesses and in the insults, hardships, persecutions, and troubles that I suffer for Christ.  For when I am weak, then I am strong.”  2 Corinthians 12:8-10 (NLT)

My brother-in-law, Kevin, has a thorn in his side.  Kevin has been sick for many years, suffering from kidney disease.  His most recent years have been spent on dialysis, hoping to get healthy and strong enough to qualify for a kidney transplant.  Kevin has been in and out of the hospital at least six times per year, if not more.

His body has been poked, prodded, and pinched too many times to count by nurses and doctors.  His body keeps going.  Each time he goes into the hospital with a fever, or pneumonia, or whatever the illness of the month is for Kevin, I wonder how much more his body can take.  I wonder if he’ll make it.  I wonder if he’s got the will to survive.  Kevin pulls through, every single time, and goes on with life until the next time his thorn appears.

My heart begs God to go ahead and take Kevin home.  I lament that he can’t possibly endure any more hardships and yet, Kevin miraculously pulls through, time after time. Kevin was recently admitted into the Cardiac Care Unit at the hospital.  His blood pressure was elevated for over 12 hours and they could not get it under control.  I prayed again that God would take him home.  But, once again, Kevin pulled through.  This is clear evidence to me that God is not finished with Kevin.

Kevin has spent plenty of time in darkness, and like Paul, has probably asked God to take away the thorn, or worse, hoping God would just put an end to his suffering.  Jesus responds by telling Paul and Kevin, and you and I that His power works best in our weakness.

God’s got a specific plan for Kevin and his life.  Only God knows what that plan is, but He is asking Kevin to persevere through his illness until His plan is fulfilled.  I finally get it.  Rather than pray for God to take Kevin home, I have started praying that God would reveal His plan for Kevin’s life and use him to be God’s hands and feet.

Are you suffering through illness?  What is the thorn in your flesh?  Don’t give up.  Persevere.  God has a plan for your life, and He will continue to pursue you until His plan is revealed and fulfilled.  Don’t believe me?  Just ask Kevin.

Be encouraged.  When we are weak, Christ power is strong.

His grace is all we need.

Peace be with you.

~Julia

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